This is my story about my walk to salvation and redemption. God delivered me from a destiny destroying path and led me to a path of honour and glory. My story can be summed up with this bible verse Ps 91:15-16: “He will call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him and honour him. With a long life I will satisfy him, and I will let him see My salvation.”
I was brought up in a strong Christian home. By the age of 5, I was praying in the spirit, speaking in tongues. By the age of seven, I was going on evangelism outreaches in my church. My vacations were filled with bible schools and children retreats. I was already introduced to fasting and prayer by age 8. My dad is a medical doctor, so whenever he would prescribe medications, we would say, “I am healed in Jesus name!”
The Word of God instructs to train up children in the ways of the Lord and when he/she is old, they will not depart from it. I was a child that put that word of God to test.
Proverbs 22:6 New King James Version (NKJV)
6 Train up a child in the way he should go,
And when he is old he will not depart from it.
By my 20s, my life had seemingly taken a 180-degree turn. I was smoking and drinking. I was a lady with loose morals. I still went to church, but only periodically. When I was in a jam, I would pray to God, but that was the extent of my relationship with God.
I was doing well in life and I was rising fast in my career. At the time, I was earning enough to have my 2 sisters and mum live with me in a nicely furnished 3-bedroom apartment. My weeks were filled with long working hours (they still are), and I started my weekends clubbing from Thursday till Saturday. I would spend nights with strange men and drove home in drunk blackouts more times than I can remember. I was that girl at the club usually on a drinking spree. Sometimes, it was with friends and other times it was me by myself drinking half a bottle of brandy and chain smoking on a pack of cigarettes.
With my current track record, I was going to expire soon. I felt empty. I was the life of the party, but I kept looking for something to fill an emptiness.
In 2012, I was struck by a terrible illness and could not sleep for 21 days and lost 20kg. My mum was sure it was HIV as a result of my lifestyle, but several tests came back negative. After days of doctors telling us they didn’t know what was wrong, my mum insisted that we go to a prayer camp. After 7 days of prayer, I was able to sleep. Then, I found my way back to God because of the healing He had granted me, but I eventually went back to my old ways.
In 2013, I was plagued with blackouts. I would be driving and then suddenly I would have lost about 45 seconds to 1 min of time. MRIs and ECGs revealed nothing. According to doctors, there was nothing physical they could see that triggered the blackouts. It was advised that it might be psychological, so I started seeing a therapist. Again, I prayed for healing, received it and moved on with my life.
In 2014, I was involved in a drunk driving accident coming back from the club. I was the driver and I had run into a parked trailer. The front of my car was totalled, and my head had rammed into the windshield. My scared passenger, instead of taking me to the hospital, took me home. When I woke up in the morning, a friend came over and took me to the hospital. I miraculously only suffered a broken finger and a cut to my tongue. I had to wear a neck brace for only a week. The doctors told me that if I had not been wearing my seatbelt, I would have been very seriously injured or dead. As I was blackout drunk, I cannot remember putting on my seatbelt before leaving the club. I did not even remember leaving the club. I was driving again by the next week. Grateful for this escape from death, I gave thanks to God.
In 2015, I was given the opportunity to come to Ghana on expatriation. My career was going well, but I was suddenly depressed and lonely. I was so depressed that I began to depend on alcohol. I would start my day with a few shots of vodka and usually carried a water bottle that was filled with half-and-half with vodka and water. I got through the day by drinking.
In addition, I was looking for love in all the wrong places. On weekends, I would go clubbing and sometimes end up with strangers in my apartment.
Another chance for God to catch my attention came when I was on a work visit to a colleague and suddenly broke down crying. She counselled me and gave me a Christian movie to watch. I did not watch it for months, but one day during one of my depressed moments, I decided to watch it. The movie “War Room” talked about redemption and prayer.
I was inspired to rededicate my life to God, and I created a small war room in my apartment. My life suddenly began to have definition and direction; a lot of events happened in that season. I stopped drinking and smoking completely. I got married. I got promoted again at work. My husband and I moved into our own home in a country that is not my home country. My life turned around completely. I have had friends from my past say, “Ruth, if God can turn your life around and bless you this much, then there is definitely hope for me!”
He gave a me a new direction, a new hope and purpose. Some days are still a struggle, but the one thing I know is that His RELENTLESS love brought me back to me. My story is one of relentless pursuit, relentless forgiveness and relentless salvation.
I am honoured to share my story, and I hope that it brings comfort and hope to anyone who thinks they have been given too many chances to be worthy of God’s love. We have all fallen short of His glory and even our righteousness is but filth before Him. It is because of His GRACE that He sent His son Jesus to die for us.
With God, you never run out of chances, but out of time. With Him, you have never gone too far that He cannot or will not redeem you! He has the GPS of your destiny and even though you miss the turns He has planned for you, when you turn back to HIM, HE will always reroute your path to the glorious destiny He has for you.